30 weeks!

So can you believe I'm already 30 weeks along or 7 1/2 months?  I feel like it's gone by so fast, so fast in fact that I'm starting to panic because I don't have really anything ready for the baby (really it's because I'm actually going to have a baby). Conversations usually go, "so do you have the baby's room all ready?!" nope haven't even really started (besides he's going to get more like a corner), no I don't have a color scheme, no I don't have a theme and no I really haven't bought anything for the baby. And yes, I know that's crazy, and yes I know I need to sometimes said between a frozen smile and clenched teeth. Inside I'm thinking, do you know how big of a life change this is? It's huge and buying stuff just forces me to confront it so I just choose not to :) I know so healthy. What can I say though? Pregnancy is a roller coaster and I feel like going from Christmas is coming to the end of the world as we (Jason and I) know it.

I will say though the pregnancy itself always continues to be a fun adventure. I'm continually fascinated by my daily changing body. The other night I woke up and the baby was apparently underneath my ribs, I adjusted myself and it hurt so I brilliantly thought I would sit up. Well as soon as I used my muscles to sit up I regretted my decision. I sat up in bed panting waiting for the pain to go away. Jason wakes up and asks me what's wrong and I say "I feel like I got stabbed with a knife!" and he says "oh no, it's not that bad." Ha as if he knew how bad it hurt but then like I know what it's like to be stabbed with a knife. We had a good laugh about it the next morning. If there's one thing I've learned throughout my pregnancy it's that you just laugh and go along with what happens.

On how everything is awesome

You know how you imagine different phases/moments of your life, what you'll be doing, how you'll feel, how the whole world will be right (or in some cases wrong)? A lot of times those moments turn out so much worse than you imagine (like finding out I was pregnant put me into panic instead of happy contentness) AND other times they are exactly how you imagine those moments to be. Life right now is one of those moments. I'm 26 weeks pregnant and guys life is so awesome. I'm not even sure why except that everything you accomplish when you're pregnant becomes a big deal. Like dressing cute, carrying groceries to the car, exercising, sleeping well, cleaning the house, etc. Instead of just being annoyed at boring chores it kind of becomes a "yeah that's right, I did that and I'm 6 months pregnant, booya!" I'm loving the time I have to spend on myself to work out, or resign myself to the couch because I'm hormonal, cook yummy things, and clean and read and organize. I'm also relishing the time Jason and I spend together where it's just the two of us and we still have all our freedom. 

  Besides that the second trimester has been a dream compared to the first and now that I'm entering the third I know that will get hard (I'm already having back pains and leg cramps and big belly problems) but honestly it has to so I will want to push this baby out. 

I guess mainly I'm just feeling so blessed. Also, another thing to be happy about? This package came in the mail the the other day

Words can't even express how perfect this is and how excited I was when I opened it.

And since I haven't posted many pictures of me with a stomach here are a couple....