And It's A.....

BOY!!!

20 weeks!

*warning, this is a more serious post than most, sorry! 20 weeks ago started the crazy journey of my life. I can also say it's been one of the scariest. Beginning pregnancy with bleeding and cramps isn't necessarily a good sign. Not only was I in some pain that I certainly wasn't planning on (nor is it too common) but I was scared of just about everything. Scared of miscarrying, scared of actually having a child and being a parent, and scared of what was happening to my body. It was like all the sudden the body that I had lived with for 20+ years was responding differently to everything and I had no idea how to take care of it. Even after it was pretty certain that I would actually have this baby I still held my breath at the doctor's appointments to hear that heartbeat always fearing the worst. I've learned a lot about what faith and trusting in Heavenly Father means over the past couple of months and how little I actually do that. I've had to work so hard to hand everything over to God and let myself just trust him. I'm certainly not perfect in this but I can say that when I say "thy will be done" is the time that I feel the most solace. Now I think I've finally reached a point where I can truly be excited and let myself be happy about what's happening. I've started to feel little kicks in my stomach that make me so happy no matter what mood I'm in. And I'm already half way through! (pregnancy is 40 weeks) It's gone by really fast. And the best thing? We get to find out what the gender is on Tuesday! I'm so excited I can't wait. Any guesses on what you think it will be?

Dreams

In the last week or so I have had dreams about traveling to London and Hawaii.  When I realized where I was in the dream I couldn't contain my excitement. And now I am extremely restless. I have the travel bug and I want to go somewhere SO bad. I keep coming up with all of these plans and Jason just laughs. We were supposed to go to upstate SC this weekend and go on a hike, go to the temple, and see my sister-in-law. I was hoping that that would help. But thanks to the crazy storm this week and the power outages  up north we are still in Charleston. I think I might have pre-baby jitters and want to do something out of the ordinary. Kind of as a last chance to do some traveling before the baby which I know isn't true. I never had that "do something crazy" desire before I got married so maybe it just waited. Of course on the other hand it could be that I spent two days last week with out a car stuck in the house and this week two days without a car and two days with a "snow" storm stuck in the house again and honestly there's not a whole lot of places to walk to from our house, like no where. I don't know what it is but I just want to travel so bad! So if anyone gets a free plane ticket somewhere let me know, I'm totally game.

 

Like Father Like Daughter

The last few days have been full of adult things like having a car in the shop, thinking about the possibility of needing to buy a new one (which thankfully at the moment doesn't look like that's needed) thinking about life insurance, working, and stress. You know, all of that grown up stuff that makes me wonder why I wanted to grow up in the first place.

So it's times like these when you call your dad and have a conversation about chocolate. Seriously I think we had a 40 minute conversation yesterday on our favorite chocolate deserts and what I could make for an upcoming chocolate night one of my friends is throwing. Because you know what? Even though life is rough for both of you, dad knows that conversations about non- related, happy, and fun topics like chocolate always makes the world better. And by the end of the conversation no questions were asked and no problems were solved but happiness is re-ignited.

Thanks dad for being the person in my life that shares my love of food.

Mail

Received this in the mail today. Best. Stamp. Ever. 

You are the best Camille. Thank you for the biggest smile of our week.

Changes for the Hammon's

Change #1: There are a ton of cute and fancy ways to break the news but I like to just come out and say it, Jason and I are expecting!

I know, it's big. We found out the last week in October and now I am currently 18 weeks pregnant. (these pics were taken at 15 weeks so I'm just a little bit bigger now) That means our baby is due July 6th. We'll find out the gender in two weeks! Don't worry, I have a lot to say on this subject and there will be more posts coming soon. Right now I can say we are very excited/scared/wondering what we got ourselves into but mostly really excited :)

Change #2: I cut my hair short over Christmas and I'm loving it.

Change #3: I made the really big decision that I won't be going to the graduate school program that I got accepted to. This was probably one of the hardest decisions of my life (next to getting married). The program was supposed to start the week before Martin Luther King day and I made my decision the Tuesday before school would have started. To some this might seem like a no brainer and to others I know they think I'm throwing my life away. Believe me this decision was not made lightly. I think I'll write a post on this but I have to figure out how to put it all into words. Ultimately though I feel really good about my decision and I'm really excited.

Change #4: So since I'm not going to school I decided to take money I had been saving and buy a Cannon DSLR SL1 to treat myself. I'm loving it but I'm even more loving that Jason loves to use it which means I get pictures taken of me for a change. Let's face it, that's the real reason I got it ;) 

I know this is only the beginning of our lives changing in 2014 when our family of 2 becomes a family of 3 so 2014 bring it on.