Wake me up when September Ends

I should apologize for not being a better blogger but I'm pretty sure nobody reads this especially when I'm just in Provo so maybe I don't feel that bad. Warning: before you read this you should know September has been a horrible month and so this post will be quite unexciting and very pessimistic so don't judge me. So first month back in Provo and I'm literally drowning in my own homework from my lack of productivity. With that said though, I've also had a couple of other things happen this month that have kept me from being emotionally happy. First, transitioning from not being at BYU for the whole year of 2010 to all the sudden having classes and a demanding schedule has been TOUGH. Then my Grandma Walker passed away which was emotionally draining although a blessing for her. And then a couple more things have happened this month that has left me feeling very, very alone and like nothing will ever work out how I want it. Now of course I know that going through these things will lead me exactly to where I want to be because it always does but for right now I would love to crawl in a whole or speed up time till it all works out. Life can be so cruel. Will anything really ever work out? I don't even know if I'll make it through the semester let alone the next couple of days. I still haven't figured out the why of this whole equation and maybe if I figured that out I would feel better. Maybe conference will be a good remedy this weekend....